I love you, but I've chosen disco

2011-12-19T12:35:00.000-08:00

I was trying to write anything in my actual blog, but I'm powerless, I can't.
Global loneliness law, I can't say no more. That's just it

2011-12-01T02:29:00.000-08:00

This is just so funny. Not like funny as it makes me smile, but funny as it makes me laugh with a snobbish and arrogant sound - laugh which I hate so far.
Everything is a bit messed up, and I have just one month to solve every little misunderstanding.
Just to be good, one last time.
I will steal the story.

sick in a bad way

2011-11-24T21:58:00.000-08:00

I'm not making any sense in a place when I actually am at the moment. no fucking sense, I'm so mad at... me.

Hello again, Mr. Dicemen

do you like the sound of what I say? I do I do I do

2011-11-17T10:58:00.000-08:00

That's epic!

I like kids. I do I do I do

Yes, I know it's going to rain - some things never change.

and I was like

2011-11-15T05:42:00.000-08:00

fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck
damn it damn it damn it

and you played it to the beat

2011-11-14T10:11:00.000-08:00

movies once forced me to believe that I could restart everything from the very first starting point. well, I can't, time to admit.
reading makes me pure and calm and nice. music makes me happy.

[mem]

2011-11-13T07:33:00.000-08:00

watching "how I met your mother" is not preparing, what's wrong with u? ><

instead of small bitter goodbyes

2011-11-13T02:49:00.000-08:00

Sometimes it is awkwardly hard to say: "Hi". Cause "Hi", you know, is a word for somebody you don't know perfectly. For somebody means nothing to you. Not for your best friends.

Your bestie is more likely to hear something stupid, or funny, or both stupid and funny.

When I asked my best friend: "Why don't you ever say "Hi" to me?"

He answered (in a message): "Because we're on the level where you're not supposed to say "Hi" like every time, you speak to me".

so...

Are we supposed to say "Goodbye"? ("Like every time we're leaving")

I don't know yet. Are we?

Ah, levels.

Layers. Love.

What happens when you're gone?

I like to pretend that where's not me - there's nothing, like (I know, it's a stupid childish theory but still) I'm out of the room and everything stands still, I'm in - and everything is going round and around.

I'm not getting younger, sadly, not getting wiser eather. But I'd love to give it a chance and not because I'm a deeply unhappy person, but because I'm so shitty tired of pretending an always-happy one.

Otherwise, I'm not saying goodbye, cause I'm not the one who's leaving, not because I don't love you or something. Because that person is gonna be living here forever, I suppose.

Because, if you take out of the person his habits, his friends, his favorite places, his city, his stuff... it's like you're taking away everything he is. Everyhing I am is going to stay here and it has no need to say goodbye. True enough?

music is beautiful, but I'm not aloud to listen

2011-11-12T09:02:00.000-08:00

First day without twitter gone like I was in need of nicotine and heroine at the same time. hard and unproductive.
I have to be upset, but I won't be. everything's fine. Keeping myself calm is easy in a confined space. I don't look at what's-going-on-in-your-miserable-lifes and feel myself wow way better and much more free (which is wrong and weird, cause I'm almost bounded).

2011-11-12T08:50:00.000-08:00

Oh, nostalgia, I don’t need you anymore
‘Cause the silent days are over

111111

2011-11-09T06:45:00.000-08:00

"If you are thinking that I was probably the kind of giant dork in school who would correct other people's pronunciation and spelling errors you are wrong. I still correct other people's pronunciation and spelling errors."

just saying

2011-11-08T08:14:00.000-08:00

11 days left.
400 words, 8 tests, 6 testing passages, 2 books, numerous lectures and talks, 50 writing & 100 speaking questions. seems like shit loads of work.
let's see, if the girl can do it, or not.
I'm not tired, but I do worry a lot (about EVERYTHING!) - that's the reason of my troubled troubles with concentration.
and such a real winter outside. no more coats, I guess.
no more coats, no more reflection, no more NY resolutions, just one huge soap bubble
and my homemade yougurts are pretty ready, but wait

wow wow distracted always so distracted and wasted, like fucking puppy

2011-11-08T03:25:00.000-08:00

Like ongoing madness: "TRY TO READ, PLEASE" - in my notebook, and I've written those to myself, ha.
Found my old tweets, like from 2 years ago, while I was passing my first TOEFL test (yes, I found out, how to search through old tweets, like an archive), wow it's all happening just like this! the same things happening twice, even though I don't remember them - it's a total deja-vu. except that I'm not taking USU exams as well as TOEFL, that's not as good as it seems to be, because I'm out of my ability to concentrate on things more than 30min.
test is fine, but
5 hours! how would I stand this?!

2011-11-06T20:53:00.000-08:00

"Everyone can communicate in some way, and everyone has stories, that a lot of us can learn from."

BOOKS 30 days challenge

2011-10-26T05:48:00.000-07:00

Day 1. Best book you read last year.

Last year I was reading mostly some pieces from contemporary literature, and just a few of classics. That's why my favourite is the one about a little boy, who lost his dad in the 9\11 tragedy, it's called 'Extremely loud and incredibly close', and it's written by Jonathan Foer. It's not the best by it's style, but it is definitely the strongest one if we're talking about the story. It is very interesting to read, I just couldn't stop for a minute - and despite the fact I was having a lot of things to do, I read it in three days. And moreover, I memorised a lot of facts from the book and what is rare for me - I can even quote something. So that is why it is the best.

Day 2. A book that you've read more than 3 times.

Alice in Wonderland and Through the looking glass. I adore Carrolls language and the whole stories so much. Those books were my favorite, while I was staying at home because of any illness in childhood. Since then I was trying to read it in original, but haven't yet reach any success - relishing the language, I'm reading too slowly, distracting too easy and forgeting the place I've just finished.

Day 3. Your favorite series

When I was a child, my favorite series were detective books from "black cat" series. Those were child detective stories where some kids were saving the world from violent criminals, just like adults, like Hercule Poirot or Miss Marple. I can't remember why I liked them so far, but anyway, that was the only series I ever liked.

Day 4. Favorite book from your favorite series

Haha. No, I don't remember.

Day 5. A book that makes you happy

Well, I will be pathetic, but a book that was making me kind of happy is Eat, pray, love. It's definitely not even one of my favorite, probably, because I'm not into books that are nice and optimistic. But while I was reading I was so harmonized and felt no irritation at all, so I can saythat book really made me happy. Especially the Bali part, where everything is like blooming around with all kinds of colors.

Day 6. A book that makes you sad

Let it be The Lovely Bones. And the book is way better than the movie. Guess, a story of truly young girl, that lives like a ghost, watching her disgusting killer and her heartbroken relatives, is very touching. Very touching.

Day 7. The most underrated book

Can't think of a book like that. I felt something like that in Pan by Hamsun - told that it's boring, but it's really interesting.

Day 8. The most overrated book

I'd say, this is War and Peace. I hate this book with all my heart and find nothing but pathetic in it. I don't like the style, I can't stand all the positive heroes (by the way, my fav caracter is Helen, who is claimed to be a very stupid bitch - and all the scholars have to think just like that), I'm snoring at Tolstoys picturing of war (Thackeray is so much better), and I feel like this book is so false and unnatural despite the fact that it is epic historical novel.

ABOUT YOU 30 days challenge

2011-10-24T09:51:00.000-07:00

Day 1. Something you hate about yourself.

The thing I mostly hate about myself is my absolute laziness. I'm a total fail in time management and cannot be concerned on one thing for a long time. That is why I'm always late, I always do every important thing such as work or exam preparings in a very last moment, and I miss a lot of good chances to get something I really want. Just because I idle, I'm saying myself, 'oh, I'll do it another time' - but that can easy turn to 'I never will'.

2011-10-22T08:44:00.000-07:00

“It is not our differences that divide us. It is our inability to recognize, accept, and celebrate those differences.”

- Audre Lorde, a Caribbean-American thinker and poet

anniejoo.blogspot.com - this is my actual blog

2011-10-21T03:24:00.000-07:00

Hey, guys. I'm starting my preparations and though I have nobody to write to and nobody to ask/answer questions to train me - I've got to do it by myself.
So this is the, oh-very-boring-starting part, and then I will be just answering my 30-days-challenge and making notes about everything I see on a language that I don't really know at the moment.

hiiiiii